Teaching and Vulnerability

I love teaching AND, putting myself out there is not easy. Anytime anyone steps into the role of teacher we open ourselves up to criticism and questioning. Teaching is such a vulnerable thing. 
But here I am, working on a new training. I am putting together 20 years of learning, studying, apprenticing, practicing, applying, and combining all these teachings/experiences into a 6 week course. 
I am thrilled and petrified to be sharing this work. 
My comfort zone is stretched and anytime that happens, I invite fear and doubt. Just a few years ago this discomfort would have made me step back, shrink a bit, and put whatever created this unease on hold. 
The 2018 version of me doesn’t stop when I get nervous though. I acknowledge my feelings, but I have learned to distinguish between the voice in my head that will always tell me “I am not good enough”, and the part of me that experiences fear just before the moment of growth. 
Brene Brown says “You cannot have courage and comfort at the same time”, and these words have guided me and inspired me for some time. 
I know that all of us feel fear. I’ve worked with hundreds of people who stop themselves from truly living because that voice in their head is loud and they don’t have experience trusting themselves. 
I do what I do, not just because it feels right and my crooked path has led me here, I do this to support others in living BIG. Life is uncertain, but this moment doesn’t have to be. 
So today, as I sit here writing, planning, envisioning, I give myself a pat on the back. I acknowledge how far I have come, and I am aware of how much more there is still to learn. 
Humility and strength. Diving in knowing I may struggle, I may need support, but somehow I’ll find the shore, wiser and older. Ha.